gambatte!!!!

yaw. sorry.
now i have a layout (: i just hope it aint hard yall. hahahhaha apakan, kan jadi nigga tah ku nah.
i guess i have to rewrite everything i wrote just now? no thanks...

what ive been doing..
1) being a maid
2) watch animes
3) catching up naruto already. kushina uzumaki is in naruto's hatred right? *kirai naik questioningly. why?
4) reading story books
5) learning japanese (PAYAH PAYAH PAYAH!!)

so yes, ive been particularly frustrated because of a lot of things.
i just seemed to realize that life...hasnt got enough time. maybe its me, maybe its true. really, i dont know *shrugs*. plus this song im listening to is really emotional. HAHAHA so i can partially blame this song. for about 10%.
yes i know, im too attached to every song, every book, every manga, every anime, every freaking thing i do or watch.
sad song makes me sad, sad stories blahblah makes me sad, vice versa for happy.
i shouldnt get too affected by things like that but i cant help it. =S

aaaand about japanese, im learning how to write =.=" ive been on it for a few days and phewwww im not even close to good enough. theyve got so many
many
many
many
many
many
letters, strokes and stressful stuffs in between.
but i shall not give up. cause when i watch animes, theres a flash of letters, i can READ like (only) one or two letters.
read, but don't understand. hahahah. silly me. the problem is that japanese has 3 types of writing and ...
im not even done with ONE. one is hard enough, God knows T-H-R-E-E.
i cant stop halfway, because..i think i wanna go work in japan for awhile nanti. hahehohu.
I THINK LAH. i mean, when i get bored in brunei, i'll research something in japan~~ hahaha =D im getting too far ahead into the future? so sorry.. let me retrace my steps back into reality. back into form 4. x)

& suddenly, im thirsty... so. till here saja.
i.............................am..........................LEGEND. definitely. ehehe. kidding, im no legend.
im just this girl
in brunei
who just
leads
a given life
with given
power.

craptalk man..too much craptalk. then again, im not talking so much these days. talking to myself, "hajimemashite, nisa-desu."
hahaha
gaaahhh i'll bite japanese's head offffffffffff and yes, i meant the language!
but while learning this language, ive discovered something interesting.
i suddenly find that malay is a very intriguing language..english too. they say in comparison (to japanese), english is a hard language, so im kinda proud to be fluent in english.
besides, dont you question it? all these words, syllables?
every thing that comes out of your mouth? dont you guys ever wonder?

OHMYGOD this song is so deep thats why im being deep here. *inhales* okay i AM SRIOUSLY THIRSTAY.